Posted Jul 31 at 6:46 AM

 I"M BACK!!

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Hey guys, just dropped by to say hi and hope everyone had a very happy christmas.
My xmas wasnt so happy...as i told you in my last blog, my mother was diagnosed with cancer back in June of this year, she put up  a brave battle through excruciating pain and treatments, unfortunately, she lost her battle on the 15th of this month (December)
I had spent the last 3 days and nights by her bedside, chatting when she awoke, the morpheine had been increased due to the pain she was suffering so she slept a lot. On the Friday night i had to leave to come back to Horsham, (she was in Melbourne, a 3 hr drive from where i live) as it was my daughters 18th b'day party on the Saturday night, i kissed mum, told her i loved her, she told me she loved me too, i told her i would be back on the Sunday. I recieved a very cold phone call from my eldest brother telling me that the family had been called in as mum had taken a turn for the worst and probably wouldnt make it through the next hour. As you can imagine, i was shattered!! My brother is a cold hearted bastard as he rubbed in the fact that i was the only one from the family that wasnt there. I told him that i was on my way, he told me not to bother because she would be gone before i was even half way there. This was at 1.30pm, my mother passed away at 7.25pm that night.
My youngest brother rang me at 7.10pm to inform me that mum had slipped into a coma, and that everything was shutting down but her heart was still beating very strong, he said it was as if she were waiting for something. I asked him to go back into her ward and tell her that i loved her with all my heart and that if she wanted to go, go with my love, 15 mins later she was gone. I can't and won't ever forgive my brother for what he did, i could have made it there and been by her side. The day of the funeral, he never spoke to me once, he just glared at me, he didnt involve the rest of us in the funeral plans, the funeral was cold, cheap and not what my mother would have wanted.
Mums unit had been sold 6 weeks prior to her passing so we had to get everything out and the unit cleaned up (not that there was much cleaning as my mum was a clean freak), i took 3 days off work to go help this bastard, by the time i got there he had virtually thrown 67 yrs of my mothers life in the garbage, clothes that she had bought that still had the price tags on them, xmas presents she had bought for her friends and our family, photo's, cards that her grand kids(mine included) had made for her over the years. The one thing i did notice that was missing was all mums valuables like, jewellery, crystal, silverware. When i asked him where it was he said he had no idea....bullshit!! He had been going down there without the rest of us knowing.
It's amazing that it takes something like this to really find out what a family member is like.
My mother was cremated, we are now waiting for the ashes to return so we can have a burial ceremony for her, was this has happened i don't want anything to do with him whatsoever!!! Do you think i am being to harsh?

Ive had my vent, so now i would like to wish everyone a very safe, happy and prosperous New Year

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Well, it's been awhile! Things have  sure changed a little around here!!
As a few of you know, my mum was diagnosed with terminal cancer back in June, that was a real kick in the guts for us. They have given her 6 to 12 months.
They found the growth after mum (who is legally blind) had a fall in the main street of the town she lives in. She was complaining of pain in her shoulder, i suggested she go see her local GP in case she had broken something. After a lot of convincing she finally went. Her GP ordered a CAT scan, they found a growth about the size of a 10 cent coin, the doctor who performed the scan was certain it was a blood clot caused by the fall and told her not to worry about it. About 2 weeks later she returned to her GP and told him that she was getting pain in the area of the so called blood clot, he orders another CAT scan, the same doctor performs it and says he is still confident it is a clot even though it had doubled in size. He tells mum he will review her when he returns from his overseas holiday (2 weeks later) In the meantime, her GP gets the report and is not happy and sends the scans to a doctor in another town, within 2 days my mother was in having life threatening surgery for a growth that had more than tripled in size within 2 weeks. The cancer has left her wit a quarter of her bowel, it has spread to her liver and there is another growth that is totally in-operable....all this because the so-called specialist didn't want anything spoiling his plans for his holiday!!!  I have never wanted to harm anyone in the way i want to harm him!!!!! 
I am quite surprised at the way mum is handling things, in fact, she's handling it better than any of us. She is going through Chemotherapy at present, she wasn,t going to at first but she is going to see how it goes. It's taking it's toll on her, she is tired all the time, she is very moody, she doesn't want any of us around whilst she is going through it.
I am worried as i dont think she should have to endure this on her own, but my brothers and i have decided that we will let her make the decisions, what she wants is what she gets.
I just pray to god that the Chemo gives her more time with us as i am not ready to say goodbye to her.

Much about nuthin!!

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Mood: Mondayitis, Music: Wait a Minute....PCD feat Timberland.
Well, here it is, the start of a new week.....damn, the weekend went too fast. My weekend consisted of driving and more driving! Saturday was the first round of our local football season, our team, Taylors Lake, got flogged...again! My son has been home for the past week and got to play in the Under 14's & Under 17's, he was pretty excited about that (he loves his footy...and he's good at it too!!) He kicked the only 2 goals scored in the U14's, he didn't fair too well in the U17's as he had a massive blister on his heal, he did manage to spoil 2 goals from the opposition. Aussie rules footy is meant to be a winter sport....it was hot as hell!! My daughter Thalia plays Netball for Taylors Lake and she almost passed out from the heat, along with a few other girls. The weather here in Oz is crazy......we need it to rain non stop for at least a week, that would help the farmers (some have had to sell up their farms due to the drought!) and also the rest of us that are on strict water restriction. Maybe we could get our gardens green again instead of brown!!
Well, i best be off, just washed the curtains so i better go hang them back up again.....hope everyone has a great week

Teased!!

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Mood: Peeved!!, Music: Dead Silence.
Ok, whats with the temporary Premieres?? They give to those that don't have them just to tease then take them away just as quick as they gave them!!!! I know they are just trying to get more members but it totally sucks for the likes of us who are unable to purchase them. We are unable to here in Australia, if we get them, we have to rely on the generosity of those that give them as gifts. My brother, Phantumluvr, tried to purchase one using a credit card and was declined because he was from outside of the USA.
I have been on this site since 2004 and can remember if you got enough people to sign up it added to your Karma points, and if you got enough of them you would get a free membership...that don't happen anymore, now you just get a blinky.....big deal!! Gone are the good old days .
This leads me to my next question....if there is anyone out there that would be kind enough to give a gift of a Premiere, i would be eternally greatful....i hate to ask as i sound like a beggar (which i'm not ) it's just as i said before....we can't purchase them here..
Getting away from that subject ....i hope everyone had a very Happy Easter and got lots of goodies from the bunny with the floppy ears and fluffy ass (oops! did i say that?)
Well, it's now 4.11am......"Hark!" i think i hear my bed calling me.
Have a great day all and stay safe.
Cheers from The Land Down Under

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Mood: Up & Down.
Well, here it is, Thursday night, 10.54pm. The house is sooo quiet, no kids, my daughter Shannan that lives with me has gone to stay at a friends place as they are heading to the Wolfmother concert tomorrow night. (For those of you who don't know who Wolfmother are, they are the Aussie band that sing "The Joker and The Thief" from the latest Jackass movie.)
I am feeling a little depressed at the moment as it is coming up to the 1st anniversary of my beautiful friend Maxi's death, for those of you who can recall, she died on my birthday of a brain tumour. It only seems like yesterday she was there cracking jokes and making people laugh.....i miss her terribly.

Oh, by the way...i'm back at work....yippeeeeee!! The doc told me i could go back on light duties for 4 hours a day a couple of days a week. My ever so caring boss has put me on 5 hrs a day 5 days a week without a break....isn't he just the most caring boss a person could have?? phhht! I returned to find that the other person that was involved in my injury has resigned...hmm, i wonder why that could be?? I ask and get told "We don't know, he just handed in his resignation" I was shattered when i heard the news....(says she, dripping with sarcasm...lol) I'm not normally a nasty person, but after what he did, and then to have the nerve to stand up and lie about it, good riddens i say!!

To my Carolina Cutie...if you read this....THANKYOU! The rain was welcomed, could have done with a little more but in our situation down here....beggars can't be choosers....awaiting the next lot with sheer anticipation *smiles*
To anyone else out there that has a little rain to spare....please, don't hesitate to send it Down Under.
Cheers for now, Stay safe & Happy.

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Well, it's been awhile since i have written anything here. My life is a little boring .

I'm now into my 4th week off work.......i'm going crazy!!! I hurt my back at work back in Feb, didn't help that one of the guy's i work with thought he was funny and tried to trip me up after i told him i had hurt it. If it hadn't been for that jerk, i would probably be still at work now! His stupidity aggrivated it more. When the boss asked what had happened, i told him, he then went to the other person and asked for his side of the story, get this....the jerk denied it!! What a pull-thru!!!  I go back to the doctor on Friday and hopefully...just hopefully he will tell me i can go back.....fingers crossed.

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A Great Chicken Recipe Here is a chicken recipe that also includes the use of popcorn as a stuffing - imagine that! When I found this recipe, I thought it was perfect for people like me, who just are not sure how to tell when poultry is thoroughly cooked, but not dried out. Give this a try. BAKED STUFFED CHICKEN size 18. chicken 1 cup melted butter 1 cup stuffing 1 cup uncooked popcorn Salt/pepper to taste Preheat oven to 220c.   Brush chicken well with melted butter, salt, and pepper. Fill cavity with stuffing and popcorn.   Place in baking pan with the neck end toward the back of the oven.   Listen for the popping sounds. When the chicken's arse   blows the oven door open and the chicken flies across the room, it is done. And you thought I couldn't cook. Don't say i don't share!!

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Only 2 1/2 months  til the Robbie Williams concert!! My excitement is growing every day. OMFG! i sound like a teenager. shit happens. I just bought his new album "RUDEBOX" it's awesome, a totally different approach from Robbie


Now that is HOT!!!

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What a shitty month September has been here in Australia. Firstly we lose Steve Irwin! I am still finding that one a bitter pill to swallow, it just seems so unreal, like a dream, but i know we will never hear that dickehead say " CRIKEY"  ever again!! I call him a dickhead in a respectful way, what other normal person would do the things he did?? Steve's favorite saying was "CROC'S RULE" so please people, never forget  it!!

A little over 2 weeks later, another Aussie icon was killed in a freak accident. Peter Brock. To anyone that has heard of Bathurst (V8 Supercar racing) will know who i am talking about. Brocky was king of the Mountain, that is the most dangerous part of the Bathurst race, Mount Panorama to be precise. He won that race more times than any other person in the races history. He lost control of his rally car and slammed into a tree killing him instantly.

Last Tuesday i was visiting my mother and my son who live 2 hours drive from where i live. The 2 o'clock news came on the radio telling of an horrific accident involving 2 cars near where i live. My 16 yr old daughter, Shannan was with me and we looked at each other in disbelief. In these 2 cars, 7 people were incinerated, 4 adults and 3 children. Within half an hour my daughter recieves a text message on her mobile telling her that her best friend Mandy was a passenger in one of the cars!! Mandy was 17 yrs of age and the mother to a beautiful 2 yr old daughter, Mia Rose! Shannan and i sat there in silence for what seemed an eternity, then, Shan broke the silence with a scream, i hope i never have to hear one of my children scream like that again!! She fell into my arms hysterical as the reality of what happened had hit as we watched the horror unfold on the tv. The 2 cars hit head on bursting into flames instantly as one of them was carrying Go-cart fuel. By 10pm that night we had learned the identities of all the people killed in the accident, to my horror, i knew 4 of them....2 from where i used to live and Mandy (whom i fostered,that's  a whole different story)and  her boyfriends( the  father of her child) father, both from where i live now. Mandy's bf forced her to go on that fateful journey, she disliked his father and he wanted her to go so she could spend time with him and maybe get to know him better. (he had only recently gotten out of jail)Mandy argued but to no avail as the bf had some kind of hold over her and she would do whatever he told her to do. I guess the only right decision he made that day was that Mia would stay with a friend of theirs for the day!

I now wish i hadn't given up on Mandy when she was staying with us, if i had of been more persistant, she would still be here today being the wonderful, loving, caring mother that she was to her gorgeous daughter MIa!!

The couple in the other vehicle were the parents of one son, he was meant to be travelling with them but decided at the last minute to go with his mates, he drove past the accident site but didn't recognise his parents car as both vehicles were burnt beyond recognition.

MY HEART AND PRAYERS GO OUT TO ALL THE FAMILLIES OF THE ABOVE MENTIONED