Gettin Edgey

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Mood: Edgey
Well seems most of the ppl Ive talked to on here have left which sux. They raised premeiere prices so that makes it even worse.My own anxiety has been getting to me lately too I cant stand it.My husband is making a job switch so Im a little nervous with two kids to think about. I just hope it all works out.But once again it seems the seasons are changing work,friends,social activities.seems even distance is putting itself between me and ppl that I dont even want it to but,Ive learned fighting theese kinds of things is just about of no use Im just tired Im at the point in my life where I just want to be settled but it seems what I do is never enough and I never have just what I want which is not that much lol.Cost of living here sux its a minimum of $200,000 for a really small 2 bedroom place.Hmmmm my husband is so talented but thats not enough either.Seems Im stuck in neutral I dont want to run myself into the ground but I have to atleast for now which seems forever cause of my two boys I owe them the world and I have to show them how to be everything that I am not so till later xoxoxoxo Icis.

Arrrrrg!!

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Mood: Pissy
Well Sams appointment was ok friday I guess he has high functioning autism and,displaxia.The displaxia is the reason hes not talking and,it has nothing to do with the autism.The specialist said if we can get him to communicate (talk) then not only can he attend a regular school but he can see him in a talented and gifted program (TAG).This kind of autism is emotional/social but the inteligence is like off the charts.I have to get an MRI and,a EKG to see the serverity and exactly what form of high functioning autism he has and,to check for seizures.The kids are in Cumberland for 2 weeks but,I just been informed I might have to pick them up this weekand cause my family is a bunch of morons.Ive been gone and out alot since the kids have left.Had a party Saturday which was really cool lots of fun lol!! but........Im still a bit crispy.Friday night I was lit up we turnned off Sponge Bob the movie and an old aquaintance of ours was on the news he had been arrested for making a nail filled pipe bomb and trying to blow up a Greenbelt abortion clinic and he was going to kill the doctors by shooting them on their way out hes so fucked.Well I got to go for now till laterz xoxxoxo Icis.

Crap

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Mood: Tired

Well Im kinda bored doin some house cleanin',playin' alot of catch up.Nate spent the night at my grandmas.I went to the movies with my husband,Popa,Sam,and my nephew Jerry.It was Sams first movie he did really well he was a good boy (we saw x-men 3)it rawked!!Im makin a romantic dinner for me and Mark tonight Im so tired.Sam gets tested for his autism friday and thursday his teacher will be out to go over his status as far as summer school and pre-k for next year.The 10th my mom is pickin up both kids for 2 weeks oh yeah!!Ive been eye ballin this outfit and someone promised I could get it he he its gona be hot.The zipper on my favorite outfit broke so my mother in law is supposed to fix it for me.Im applying for a bus aid position hopefully I will get it.Someone I aint gona name no names forgot to invite me to his sisters welcome home party lol well like I said tired till later xoxoxo Icis.

Ranom Stuff

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Mood: ok

Well I got a new profile pic up cause Ive lost like 15 more lbs. and I changed my hair I want to take a better pic though wheres Andy when ya need a good camera lol.Been talkin to old friends again,and some new ones are already moving further away which sucks cause shes my baby :P.Just came back form the Knights Mark takes his first degree tomarrow and I will be a Queen Bee :).Im gona be getting a job soon now that Nates a little older bills are pileing up and Mark cant do any more than hes doing Im trying for a bus aid position.Decided to do marriage counciling through my church just to improve and enrich our marrital lives.Mosquitos are startin to rear thier ugly heads grrr summer is here and spring has passed well tis is life I guess.Hopefully I will be recieving some money for Sam's teeth from his uncle $2,000 jesus thats ALOT of money which I dont have but will get come hell or high water my boys are #1.I went to Baltimore yesterday I hit Doc's and Fireflys for some accessories in hopes that a friend might drop by this weekand.The 30th was my brothers B-Day.Well thats it for now till laterz xoxoxo Icis.

Mother's Day and the Beast!!

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Mood: Doing Better
Well for once my hubby dident ruin a holiday lol!!but yes but my brothers girl went nuts she was kicking her oldest boy after she slammed him on the floor he came to me crying tellin me what had happened so I told my brother.My brother confronted her about it then left(thanks alot lol) she pulled the oldest boy to the side beat him for tellin on her threatened him. I called my brother met up with him at my grandmas house told him what had happened and he was pissed at her.She was runnin her mouth about me too lol.He left immediately and went to confront her shes no longer allowed to put her hands on them at all cause she loses controll.The next day she was beatin Jeremy for crying and not answering her when she asked him what was wrong. Well this mornin is the first mornin we've been alone and last night she acted fine like nothin much had happened but this mornin she kept hintin at the incident so I told her about herself she started bawlin cryin admitted she had a problem we established she neede help AND meds so I called the mental health clinic today to get her set up just waitin for a call back.So past few days have been rough but Im willing to take the brunt of her abuse if it means the kids dont have too Id be ashamed of myself if I just let her do it.Another friend stopped by to check if I was ok that was really sweet my circle of friends is gettin big now its cool.I went to a friends house saturday had a british cocktail party read tarot cards that was awsome its the simple things in life I guess next time we get gyros from jiffy shoppes yumm!!Friday another friend showed up late shes lookin good though I enjoyed seeing her again next time she needs to stop by early so we can get plastered at a bar.Through all this Ive had a terrible cold That is just starting to break.I went to a friends sunday evening were working on his basement installing a bathroom paint moving in a sectional sofa its gona be our "chill" room fridge and workout room its gona be awsome.Another one of my friends seemed a little bummed out when I was talkin to her last night I hope things pick up for her if not she can always come stay with me  ! someone else I know is graduating from college that is awsome I know that was really hard for her juggling everything but its over now no moore papers and such more free time better job better pay.Im makin beef burgundy tonight with young baby peas and small peeled whole carrots yumm!! then Im hangin out. Things arent perfect but they are goin ya know.Sam had school pics today but I was told yesterday over the phone last minute that was so friggin irritating.He looked so cute this mornin though hes talkin more bein funny guy.He gave my my mothers day card and has finally learned to call me moma instead of Krissy lol it was the best Mothers Day present I could get I also went to Chili's that was good too so all and all life just is and its fine.Well till later xoxoxo Icis.

Can It Get Any Worse!!

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Well let's see theres still drama floating around here and there but I think it has finally pretty much died down .I think one of my old friends is avoiding me.Oh Im gona do a new profile pic soon My G-Unit outfit looks great on me my grandma loves it.I got a sexy babyphat shirt too.Well my husband had a parole thing today good thing too Sam needed to go to the doctors today he fractured or sprained something not quite sure but hes having trouble walking keeps falling over and screaming in pain.Guess I will find out soon.Well of course the hubby had to ruin my b-day with his whiney pouty shit.But he made it up to me later by giving me a night with his mouth shut.Folks its every holiday and special event with him Im not looking forward to mothers day either.Well on a good note gona hang out with 2 good friends soon.yippee some adult convo. lol. Nathaniel is teething hard he keeps bitting me lol.Had a good talk with my brother yesterday straightening out Love that girl is a mess.Well till later xoxoxoxo Icis.

Happy Birthday and Much Much More!!

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Well you guessed it it's my birthday Im a 1/4 of a century year old lol 25. Im starting to feel older lately but it dosent bother me too much I thought it would but I guess Im just secure I know who I am where Im going and what Im about I know me Ive figured the most important things I need to know out.Still working on details hell Im wise enough to know theres room to grow.Well tuesday since we had time I had my hair done I need to change my profile pic I had heavy foil bright blonde highlights done something Ive been saying Id do well Ive done it wanted something drastic lol.I like it so does my hairdresser Nina.I had my toes done too they are cute.Mark invited a friend over to my friend Mikes for a small birthday party dont know if he will show but oh well it will be fun lots of food and drinks  My cousin Richie wants to take me out for an early dinner anything I want my adopted dad gave me $25 and my brothers girl is getting me a really cute G-Unit outfit.OMG I been shopping at Forman Mills I love it.My mom called like crazy this mornin to wish me a happy birthday arrrrg I was soooo tired.Im down to 129lbs only 9 more lbs to go. Sam is a mess he has to have dental surgery aug22 they have to do a blood test for the cystic fibrosis he has to go to genetics testing physical medicine to get fitted for inserts for his shoes to turn his feet out they turn in cause of limited hip mobility which he is gettin ready to recive physical theropy for through his school.Of course he finally got the six stiches out. The dentist said Sam's teeth were defective there was nothing I could have done.Its just a mess not to mention the allergist too.All I can do is pray for him I will be glad when all this doctors and testing is over with and we find out what is wrong and treat whatever his hang up is.Oh he goes to the pediatric developemt specialist june 9.I swear so much stuff. Im mad at my husband he sees no problem he posted pics of me in my lingere on a web game he was playing I mean WTF!!!! Anyways I saw my uncle Pauls baby at the peds office he was so cute the mom was shocked he dident want to leave me.Hopefully the 6 I will be hooking up with some friends that should be awsome really cant wait.Hopefully this summer I will be going to Florida for seeing a few different friends and family/honeymoon I NEVER had lol.This is for you know who you are your beautifull and one of the coolest chicks Ive ever met and dont let no man bring you down you deserve the best and I hope you get it *MUAH* till laterz xoxoxoxo Ya'll Icis.

Thank You and Stuff LOL!!

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Mood: Better
Well someone I dont know who got me a Premiere this makes me very happy I dont know why Im lame but little things bring me joy  always been that way.Well whoever you are let me know so I can thank you properly. Well someone told me a while back this was the best site and they were right Ive been nothing but harrassed on Myspace . Seems someone has made a fake account on SWYDM just to check out my profile and blog how lame I dont care check all ya want just dont belive this person thought I was so stupid that I wouldent figure it out. For some reason alot of things have been rolling off me lately.I met a couple of new friends hanging out with new people hooking up with old friends as well.I was glad to hear from an old one today.Refreshing acctually its nice to know I have friends that no matter how long its been we can pick right up where we left off without a hitch  you know who you are! I went to Tias a mexican joint today it was awsome have to take Ducky with me this summer oh and go to Corrabas if this friend starts working there hopefully she will be by this weekand  I miss her now she is fun lol.Well Sam went to school today and me and Mark went to the ER couldent breathe got meds.I also took Sam to the dentist he needs to go to Childrens his molers have collapsed hes in so much pain its killing me. I go tomarrow to his pediatrician to get the stiches out and Im asking for a referel for his teeth I dont have dental but my dentist said it was a medical nessecity so maybe we can pull it off for cheap.My husbands brother offered to help with it no he dosent take bottles or pascifiers no he dosent take sippy cups to bed no he dosent eat alot of candy and yes I brush his teeth like 4 times a day hey Im a detal nutt.I had the same thing when I was younger the nerves arent connected to my molers genetics arent they lovely.Thursday Sam gets CF testing done again please pray it turns out alright,and to whoever bought me my premiere again seriously thank you!! Well till later xoxoxox Icis.

Sams Stiches and The emotional Roller Coaster

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Well my beautifull premiere is gone ,and to boot they have raised the premiere prices.Well my son Sam got stiches friday 6 of them!! I almost fainted.Ironic huh Im so used to needles and such being a diabetic and being stiched up a half dozen times or soand thats never bothered me but seeing my baby in pain with tears in his eyes tears me up inside its like his pain is my own.Lost a friend this past week it bothers me a bit it was so stupid in a sense but it hurt me too realizing I was never a friend to begin with oh well tis is life it goes on but Im still in search of a true girlfriend I seen what one is for a brief time before I knew what I was and I liked it.I met a new girl Ms.Ducky I like her shes awsome !! My other baby Nate went to Cumberland with my Mom for a week I miss Mr.Chubbs already.I have been losing so much wait lately Im down to a size 5 took my measurements too 35-29-36 not bad for 2 kids.I wana lose like 5 more lbs. though.Im worried bout a friend too seems shes fell of the face of the earth.Sams forehead is healing nicely oh yeah he tripped over himself and hit the edge of the wall.He has his fathers gracefull coordination.Well alot of emothions and confusions lately well till later xoxoxo Icis.

Really Sick

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Mood: Loopy
Well Ive been really ill lately unfortunately my husband had to take off a day yesterday cuse I was preety much comatose.Then I woke up this mornin and my sore throat turnned into I couldent breathe.I called my grandma she said she'd pick me up from Southern MD hospital I told Mark I had to go right then.Fucked up part as soon as I woke up I was like baby I cant breathe I have to go to the hospital he just kinda looked at me dident say a word and kept playin on the computer so I called my grandma.So anyways he drives me to the hospital or so I thought he was driving me to my grandmas!!!! so it took us extra long to get there plus we got behind the slowest damn truck,but he was so busy with his game he dident hear a word I said to him.I couldent yell it hurt too much but I sniffled my feelings were hurt I was like now I truely see where I'm at on your prioritys.So I get there and the wait was short for a change but it was like 6am.I told the doc breathing and pain was better cause I took a darvacette he was like unless its prescribed dont take it blah blah then I told him I dident even take tylenol yesterday when I was ill I dident even take meds after my c-section. I was like but when it comes to breathin Im rather fond of living..He said when ur in pain the musclles tighen up so the pill I took helpped relax them and made it easier to breathe.He checked uot my throat and I had the worst case of toncillitus he'd had ever seen and if I had waited much longer they would have had to operate.Well my brother has it and so does my nephew and he refuses to go he says its just a sore throat they are gona spread it its contagious even Love his girl is quarantined them.If Sam wants to be a retard fine but he owes it to Jeremy as a parent to take him jeez I swear what is wrong with people Sam can also keep his sick butt in the room.They gave me a shot of antibotics gave me a shot of steroids cause I was not gona be able to swallow pills gave me perscriptions for steroids antibiotics and some killer pain meds my grandma picked me up took me to fill em I told her Id pay her back friday Im very good about debts.My throat is still swollen but I can breathe so Im happy.As far as other stuff Sam was given a vaccine yesterday at immunology for a17 viruses its a special vaccine for kids with immune disorders like cancer and stuff so yeah.My dad had to take him cause I was so sick.I ordered me a magic 8 ball belly ring my birthday is cumming up mark asked what I wanted I think Im gona do my hair in bright hilights I already highlight but its natural and blends I want something loud and bright lol my hair was always blonde or bright blonde till I got pregnant with my first son Sam now its back to my natural dirty blonde but up untill 14 it was acctually white naturally anyways thats where my Sam Sam gets it from.Another quick rant when my grandma picked me up like I said I was out of it so I depended on Mark to take care of the boys but when my popa picked Sam up when they took his jackett off his shirt was encrusted in stiff dirt and his sippy cup had sour milk in it Im pissed he dident even check that poor babys cup he just played video games got aggrivated cause Nate was crying so he started yalling at him hes 8mo old.he did do stuff when I asked him but he said it gets frustraiting I was well welcome to my every day.I cope you learn to too.I got my room cleaned I couldent relax till I did so now Im happy.On sad notes my friend passed away.I will be done with catholosism classes in like a week and a half I have to pick a saint be reading on them dont know who yet.Well till laterz xoxoxo Icis.