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Subscribe to blogYou know, things have been really negative as of late. But, I m determined to keep my head up, and go on with life! I am sick of tired of being sick and tired. To all of you WHO ARE REAL FRIENDS OUT THERE, and will read this....I love you, and I m sorry for being a major pain in the ass. But, you have always listened to my whining, and I would do the same for you. Thanks!
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You know, things have been really negative as of late. But, I m determined to keep my head up, and go on with life! I am sick of tired of being sick and tired. To all of you WHO ARE REAL FRIENDS OUT THERE, and will read this....I love you, and I m sorry for being a major pain in the ass. But, you have always listened to my whining, and I would do the same for you. Thanks!
OK today could be classified as one of the worst in a while. It started with me oversleeping. I woke up at like 6:30 am, when I normally get up at like 5:30 am. Then, my daughter told me that there was something that she took out of her book sack and needed to tell me but I was gonna be mad. Well, she went and got this piece of paper from school. It said that she has two library books due since freaking NOVEMBER. And that there is a balance of $47.25 due or she can not go in the field trip tomorrow.
So, I got on her ass. Told her she should have told me months ago that she could not find them. So, we went and searched her room for an hour. We did not find them. The more I thought about, u see I check her booksack each and every nite. So, I thought maybe they are at daycare cause I have never seen them in her booksack. So, we went to daycare. One of the ladies said she remembered seeing one of the books a long time ago because she had to take it away from teh kids because they were arguing over it. But, we looked and looked, and no books. I told daycare that I pay them $80 a freaking week to watch her and keep up wiht her things. Given, she is 7, and needs to learn some repsonsibility. But, if she was responsible enough to take care of herself, SHE WOULD NOT BE IN DAYCARE>
So, then we went to teh school so I could talk to the principal. I am mad cause they could have told me a week ago before I paid for the field trip about this and have handled, not two days prior. Anyway, the principal kept telling me Falen should ahve told me before. And I told her, I accept that and agree, and as her punishment , she is not gonna go on the field trip, but it makes me mad because they should have told me sooner. She says that she has 700 students and can not send home a note everytime a library book does not get turned in. I told her I understand but I COULD USE A LIL FUCKING COMMUNICATION FROM THE SCHOOL, and to not put ALL the blame on the 7 year old. Anyway, she kept repeating the same shit over and over. You know, I was crying to this woman, very upset. And she would not even have any kind of sweetness to say I m sorry you are so upset, and I understand. NO, she said I should communicate better with Falen. As I told her, Falen is ADHD, and can barely remember shit that happened ten minutes ago. AND HAD I KNOW ABOUT THIS SOONER< then I would be more understanding, but they waited fucking five months to tell me the bookes were missing. I finally got so aggravated I left before I told her to go get fucked, or something else I would ahve regretted.
So, I left and called the school board. You see this is not the first type of bullshit experience I ve had with the school. In Kindergarten, they lost her. And last year, I ve paid for things, and they say I had not. But then, I had the cancelled checks to prove it. And then, also, a couple of days, they called me to come get her because she was misbehaving. I m not talking about anything bad, but just her being a lil loud. I mean my grandmohter is 66 and can handle Falen. They acted as if she was bouncing off the walls and not listening. Anyway, I talked with the Asst Superintendent of the school board. He agreed that they should have told me much sooner. And will call the prinicpal and promised me this woudl never happen in the future. And I told him I will be sending a written complaint and I do expect something to be done.
Well, then I stopped at the store on my way in to work. I got gas, and went in to pay. My card was declined. I just made a fucking deposit on Monday. So, I had to leave a note wiht the guy. They know me, so he allowed me to promise to come on friday and pay it. You talk about embarrassing but at least they know me well enough to trust me. I go there every damm day. So, I called the bank. I told them when I made this deposit Monday, I specifically asked if a check had cleared. The teller even walked to the back because at first they had not paid it, and it had been resubmitted. SHE CAme back and said YES it is paid. So, they refunded my account.
But good lord, all this shit happenint to day really upset me. I mean just everything lately has been so much, and I REALLY DID NOT NEED This all today. I m calming down now at Sonja s and need to get my ass to work. But, I had to vent and get it all out so I can let it go.
(1) I am very self conscious, though most think I have all the confidence in the world.
(2) I am a total slob. I hate to clean with a passion.
(3) I am really a big softie. I would give the shirt off my back to someone in need. I ve done it many times before for friends, and always get burned.
(4) I have a horrible fear of my daughter dying before I do. I know its silly, and in some ways maybe it is every parents' worst nightmare.
(5) I love to walk around the house naked. I really do! It is not something to say just to make people think about me being naked!
(6) I sing and write music, but I am a total coward when it comes to public performances. I have done it and do it, but I promise you I m dying inside scared shitless the whole entire time.
Well, weekend was action packed! NOT! I went camping, and it was fun. We basically smoked, and drank all day!! So in other words no one was SOBEr! lol We cooked, bbq, and that was about it! lol Nothing more to tell. We went to LAND O PINES in Robert, LA. We went canoeing also, which was very funny! Picture 8 drunk people trying to row a lil ass canoe! LOL Needless to say, we kinda fell over in the water a few times! lol
Ok, latest update on some of the fraudulent Hurricane Katrina Visa Card purchases! I talked about these several weeks back ....the # of these $2000 VISA cards that were obtained through false identities. Well, I found out where some of these charges were done.
$1200.00 - Strip Club
$500.00 - A tattoo
$400.00 - A massage parlor (Obviously not the kind of massage I ve paid for)
$200.00 - An adult "erotic toys" sex shop
These were just a few. I mean come the fuck on. It is ridiculous! Their homes were destroyed, so I guess they THOUGHT they DESERVED to relax!
Well, I did not get to go to any freaking parades this year. AS luck would have, I was having some major medical issues going on. So, no parades, no beads, no pictures. NO FUN!
Regardless, not as if it wont be around next year. Shit happens is all I can say!
My uncle passed away, died of congestive heart failure. Then, to boot, half the family does not get along. So, the funeral itself was divided. Half the family spoke to each other, half did not.
Then, of course, there is the fact that my aunt has issues. She is a TRUE head case. She has accused my Uncle Bill of sleeping with his own sisters, and nieces...one of which would be me. This is my uncle who used to work on my car for me. And yes, I m serious, she told both of us one time that she KNEW we were sleeping together. THAT IS SOME SICK SHIT u know....but I can not make her mind change, only can deal with it to the best of my ability.
And then there is my cousin, my other uncle s son who RECENTLY stole my granny s purse, and my pop s medicine bag RIGHT FROM THEIR HOUSE!! I mean the nerve! How could he steal from them? I mean pop had to be rushed to the ER because he did not have his blood pressure medicine! That kills me....that lil selfish crack headed bastard!
You know there are more members of my family that I dont choose to CLAIM than I DO!
Oh yeah, my sister s wedding shower, YEAH I KNOW, after the wedding...we had that this weekend! So, at least there was a SILVER LINING to all this!
Well, it is MARDI GRAS time!!! For those of you not from Louisiana, Sorry u are missing out! I love this time of year. So many people, all of them drunk, to some degree or another, and all here for the same reason. TO P A R T Y! Yeah, and I love to do it too! I ve got parades to go to from tonight, thru TUESDAY! lol
And I will have pics to post, I ve got my camera ready! Although, may get some problems at WAL MART for developing!
If I could trap time in a bottle, I d tell u what I would do......hmmm, that leaves a lot to be said. I know I do not write in here as much as I used to. Just seems sometimes, as if I loose the want and desire to share my thoughts and views with the world. I feel as if there is some black hole sucking away at my calloused soul. It still breathes, yet, it seems to be gasping for air, as if wheezing. I dont know if it is the lack of interest in life in general that seems to be dragging me down. Or my lack of enthusiasm here this past week.
My younger sister got married this weekend. But, there is more to this story than meets the eye. She was a virgin (at the ripe ole age of 22) until 3 months ago. During Hurricane Katrina, we had to stay in a hotel room. My sister and mom came up from Slidell to stay with us as well. There were some guys that worked offshore staying in the hotel also waiting to go back offshore. We wound up, Since I m such the people person, hanging out with them for most of the time we were there which was about 2 weeks. My sister, and this guy, Shawn, wound up hitting it off.
I was shocked. See, my sister is beautiful, HONESTLY. Just wait til I post the wedding pictures, and you will see. I have always been jealous of her looks. But, she has no personality, I mean she does, she is just not a people person. She never dated ANY guy growing up. Her dates for school dances, proms, etc, where always guy friends of mine. Shit, I even got her best friend a date TOO for their senior prom. LOL Boy, does that bring back memories. I was a pimp...ROFLMFAO....no, not really, I just always had tons of guy friends. Anyway, my point being, my sister has no experience at relationships PERIOD!
The other thing is, she has never drank, smoked, done any drugs. She has went to church and been good, reamined a virgin. Shawn, like me, has piercings, tattoos, drinks, smokes....lol....divorced, with a kid. So, I was like what in the sam hell is going ojn here? So, now maybe you understand a lil bit better.
So, they began dating when he was home from offshore, and had sex in November. She found out she was pregnant sometime last month. I dont recall the date. But, they do care about each other, but they got married because she was pregnant. Well, and because she could not live wiht him if they were not married. No, this was not her standard or clause. Problem is he had a messy divorce, and his ex made stoipulations in their custody agreement that HE could not have over night guests and see his son. SO, they have to get married to live together; HOWEVER, his ex wife has a live in boyfriend., GO FIGURE! What the hell?
Anyway, it was a pretty lil simple ceremony. But, I dont think it is gonna last. They barely know each other. Oh well, I am venting, and she knows how I feel. I told her I think she is compounding mistakes. And then, she went there, she said she did not want to be like I was with Falen. (For those of you who dont know, that is my daughter's name.) She did not want to be single, and do it all alone. That hurt, but so be it. As I told her, you make your own bed.....I wish you the best!