Mood: bladblah, Music: i have skype on bebo
dont really spend much time on this site anymore , if you want to catch me
I Please connect with me on Bebo, just copy and paste below:


http://www.bebo.com/invite/214487730a503611456b229

Sally

Mood: relaxed, Music: pearl jam i am mine
Just ponding about the fact that i really must be a boring find on this site, as so many people come to my profile, but never leave a message!!!

Mood: happy, Music: ozric tentacles
feeling good today,, even though im shattered, things are getting better at home, and my husband is making a real try to make me happy, hes a good man

Mood: down, Music: screaming in my head
Well, im back, havent been on for ages, certainly not on my blog anyways, i kinda really missed my blog even though i hardley ever wrote in it, i was lazy depressed bored and busy.
my head is screaming all the time and im tired.
i have my three beautiful kiddies and there the only thing that has kept me going, but things have to change, i cant be bothered to feel like this anymore, the drugs dont work so il have to do it myself, but maybe im too lazy to do this, need a good night out to thrash it out i think.
I feel like im living in a lifeless marriage, we both seem to hate eachother most of the time and just exsist the rest,if the children wernt here i think things would be different, we would probably be a lot happier sokmewhere else,, but my three beautiful kids hold us together, i could nevber be without them ever!
Things are hard at the moment, Sj (11) has hit puberty he hates everything and everyone, i miss being close to him,tom has started school and a little sod and grace well she is just a total princess, but as i said could never be without them, they are my life.
Had a row with my boss quit my job, maybe this will make me feel better in the long run, no more late nights, no more social life though.
on the up i have a brand new car, vauxhall zaphira and it has a flip up key i love it,, ohh and a cd player and air con(noyt really needed in winter but hey!)
did i mention how much i love my kids!
I have 4 chickens now too, rescued from the battery farm, dont like eggs though so my neighbours get them!
do you ever think you think too much , i do , im constantly thinking,maybe this makes me tired!
im feeling a need to travel, i used to do it all the time,, maybe this was just an excuse for running away,, a good excuse however.
im also feeling a harsh pain in my belly i think this is as i havent eaten may go get some chocolate in a minute,did i mention have started smoking again, i missed that too!
hm maybe a marmite sandwich will do

Mood: thinking, Music: ahhhhhhhhhhh
hmm been trying to decide today which song has ment so much to me that it has changed me
conclussion brain fried

Mood: grrrrrrrrrrrrr
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

Mood: good
Well i feel better today went to bed early(9pm) baby went right through till 4am for her feed,, best nights sleep in ages,, layed in bed for an hour and a half playing with her(shes getting right into peek a boo now!) she then fell back to sleep and i got up went to the local pool and thrashed out some stress and unhappiness,, its been a while since ive swum and i can tell you im never happier then when im in the water swimming fly and backstroke,, i now have my sis in law and her husband coming up for the weekend so it shall be busy again!!!
hope you are all well and happy
love
s
xxxxxxxxx

Mood: sad and depressed
ah today i feel down and depressed,, im shattered,, life with three kids is harder than i thought,, but its not there fault,, there the only thing that makes me happy nowadays!
no today i feel upset and used by my husband, its not worth talking to him as he doesnt understand and hell he is never wrong, we had a huge arguement yesterday and today well it just seems that he said what he said to shut me up and get the lift he wanted, he has decieved me again,, i know im lucky having a husband as a lot of women have to cope on there own and sometimes i think id be better off on my own as you see my life consists with running round after him then the kids, its just to much, i just want to leave and be with my family, have some time to myself, he has greatly decieved me before and trying to trust him is hard but i honestly thouht he realised just how serious i was yesterday but no , just the same as usual

the weird thing is im all on my own as i chose him over my life friends and family, so sorry for ranting here but i have noone else to tell

anyways heres to a busy dayhopefully it will nock some sense into me and a bit of happiness
love to you all
xxxx

Mood: tranquil, Music: none
yay for all these changes,, im still trying to come to terms with some of them,, but after the crash ,, well that kinda sucked nearly moved over to my space, but its getting better and it can only go up!!


Well being a mum to three is a lot different to being a mum to 2!!!!
i used to have one hand to grab each of them from doing dangerous stuff i am now down a hand and growing more grey hairs.

My daughter is a beautiful compliment to the family and her big brothers apsolutley dote on her, its hard to believe shes 10 weeks old already,, time is sure going fast !!!

From si-1977 at Nov 29, 05:51 (delete)
Oi oi speedy! :)

From bucky1120 at Nov 28, 19:59 (delete)
cute!

From shaker at Nov 28, 06:32 (delete)
i`ll admit, it did smart a little! ;)

From J4VIER at Nov 28, 06:16 (delete)
Feeling better? :)

From cam_n_get_it at Nov 28, 06:02 (delete)
Me? Take a look in the mirror! ;) How are you, and how`s Grace? *hugs*

From caRiBBeanBreeZe at Nov 28, 05:51 (delete)
Hello. I would love to take swim Lessons, please. :)

From chicagophotoman at Nov 28, 05:46 (delete)
wow. your quite hot! 10!

From luckycasper at Nov 27, 05:30 (delete)
very nice, 10

From cam_n_get_it at Nov 25, 08:50 (delete)
oi oi! Blimey, I thought I was back in the East End for a minute there, lol. ;)

From si-1977 at Nov 25, 08:16 (delete)
Oi oi speedy mc-fresh baby! :)