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Lying awake, still in bed

captive by my own thoughts

mind, so powerful but restless

trying to break free

only to fall short of victory

im a prisoner in my own body

not knowing when i can sleep

not knowing when i will blackout

thoughts filling up my mind

good and bad, but how much can i take?

the heart has been beaten into submission

thanks to my past, but how can i evolve?

many sleepless nights, mornings, and days

i have been wondering if there is a cure

only if i could grasp the concept

the concept of controlling my soul

i want to be me and only me, but unable

therefore i do not like who i am

or what i have become in all of this

in the midst of a battle with my innerself

comes along my soldier, my daughter allie

all 3 feet and 34 pounds of her

she has kept me sane and afloat

if it were not for her, where would i be?

i care not to think about that

instead think of the future

but what happens when it cycles?

in captivity, how much is enough

how much torture can i endure

in the end of all this

hopefully GOD will take care of evil doings

and my daughter save me

save me from my own innerself.