Autumn

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The weather - such a delicate thing this time of year.

First snow will fall before the end of this month comes.

Frozen temperatures kiss the tips of grass with an icy touch when the light runs dim.

These are the skies of Salvador Dali. A Spanish painter`s picture perfect blue. Skewed as these skies are, they reek of warm sun, but invite in the cool.

At night and early morning I see my breath as if smoke pours from my lungs. Dew comes in so thick, it chokes the rivers underneath it`s foggy, cottony blanket.

This is the last gasp of green. Small downy flakes will soon cover over it all, though it isn`t a time of death.

Death has come. Some do not know it.

Some struggle to show their last flowery display, to prove that there is still color in their sinewy soiled souls. But it is borrowed color. Colors that do not belong to them spring forth as Autumn tightens it`s grip.

We say, what can one small person do. Yet we can rake the remnants of this time. The husks of leaves now dead. We can pile them higher than our heads.

All that`s left now is to run and jump and bound head over heels. To softly sink into a crunching bed that smells to me like stale beer and old men.

We get the chance to stuff old clothes with the remains of trees and dance them across the yard. Placing pumpkins in the place of heads, clowns and puppets become envious at their antics.

This is an amazing time of year indeed.

Been away

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I`ve been working like a MotherF&$%er, and then I was in Hawaii for my bro`s wedding.

Sorry I`ve been absent for so long.

Where have I been?

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Working! Man o man.. Been straight out and I`m so tired lately. Absolutely crazy. Now I`m off on vacation for about a week in Hawaii. I need it. I really really do. Miss all my buddies here. I`ll be back soon for you I promise.

Not sure

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I`m really not sure what`s going to happen with this music fest thing. I know that I have the right contacts to get it started, I know all the right people, but part of me still doubts we can get it off the ground. I guess I`m just wondering if I want to really focus on something like that as a top priority. Maybe what I`ll do is step back, play a part, but not have this be the major focus for the next year. For the size venue we`ve been discussing, we won`t make a lot of money on it, especially since we want to donate a portion of profits. I`ve got to make a few phone calls before I meet with my partner on Wednesday, we`ll see where things stand at that time.

I guess the big thing is that I`m really wanting to strike out to make money with my own thing, The business we created, I thought, was supposed to be more like a paying hobby. I didn`t think we would get hit with something so big so soon. I think that`s been the biggest surprise. We actually have a small indoor venue that has asked us to handle bookings, so there really is potential to get in with national bands, since we could potentially offer multiple bookings.

This is all a big mystery to me. I`ve only worked on booking one band years ago in college. my mind is spinning.

Can this be real?

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My business partner and I, we design websites and other materials for bands, may have a unique opportunity to put together a music fest next year. If you`ve ever done it, I could use some advice. I`m calling my lawyer, insurance agent and some business contacts tomorrow. Very exciting, and yet completely frightening at the same time. Hoping we can make it happen!

Advice

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Specifically about my thoughts on a young woman I know and her need for the truth about having a sex life. This was taken from a conversation I just had with her.

How do I say this... it`s emotional so bear with me. We guys aren`t good at this stuff.

Lord knows that`s true.

Here goes nothing..

You need to feel safe in yourself if you`re sharing yourself with someone else, and not look for the safety in them. You can`t be holding out because then you`ll be left holding the bag.

Go in knowing what you want and having it already, not thinking you can get it from them, especially later on, wether what you want is a beer in the fridge, a new car in the driveway or a wedding proposal on your finger.

Sex won`t get you what you want, it`s just sharing, and you have to share it with people who treat it the way you want.

Uhm....

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I think this is where I`m supposed to say things that are really witty and introspective, or comment about my outlook. Uhh.. I can`t think of anything right now.

Maybe it`s because I only slept for 2 hours last night.

I like pizza.

Is that enough?

Dogs are good too. Not to eat, don`t think that. I mean, they`re good companions and foot warmers.

Tofu sucks. When I eat it, I feel sick. Gassy and sick. Sorry - descriptive I know. It`s true though. We just don`t get along. It`s like my belly and the little Bean Curds are at war, and I`m the battlefield.

Thats it.

Glad you took the time to read this aren`t you?

I think I`m dumber for writing it. I hope you`re not dumber for reading it.

Get Ready

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Cause Here I come! I`m back on line baby!

Go ahead, knock this battery off my shoulder. I dare ya!

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Ok, can I be moved yet?

Are there any moving gnomes or something who can do all this for me?

I wonder if the moving gnomes left with the cleaning gnomes who were supposed to keep my house clean.

Only 5 more days until a U-haul backs up to my front door. Will it be enough time? I do not know... I just do not know anymore.

I was supposed to get rid of a futon this weekend. Unfortunately the person who was to receive it never called me. There is sits upon my porch taking up valuable space I could use while I clean and pack.

My dryer broke on Thursday night. That wasn`t very nice of it now was it? No - I didn;t think so either. I think it saw me in my time of need, snapped it`s little belt off it`s drive and laughed and laughed and laughed while it pointed it`s little nubby white knobs at me.

Stop laughing dammit... I know where your plug is. Nasty little machine.

Tired. So very tired. must find dessert and then bed.

By for now all...

On the Move

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I`m Moving!!!

Psyched about it. Really cant wait. Cleaning up everything at my current place and realizing I have way too much stuff. Garage Sale at my house this weekend! Don`t bother traveling for it though - I`m keeping all the good stuff. ;)

Gotta get on the ball and sign my daughter up at the new school. That`s kind of exciting. Many challenges to be faced, inclusing being broke after making the security deposit. Help is on the way though! A good friend is coming through with a short term loan. Thank god for good friends!

I won`t be on much at all, well - I haven`t been on much at all, I should say I won`t be on much at all until after the 16th. Depends on the Cable company too. Had my cable turned off where I am, and hope it`ll be on soon enough at the new place - though I don`t actualy move in until the 16th. Keep those fingers crossed that all goes well.