WHATEVER

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i love my new blog its so cute!!!  well i guess im in a good mood today!  i havent seen justin in 2 days and that kills me but im tired of crying over him and he does nothing but go out and do what ever he wants!  so oh well to him!  someone better will come along and get me and he will be the biggest loser!!!  hahahahhahah

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another lonely night

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Mood: justin

well tonight im at my house cuz justin said i cant stay at his!!  like always i just sit here and cry cuz i dont understand him at all!!  he tells me he loves me and shit then he will be like you need to go home!  fuck i dont think that is love!  He only wants me around when i have money or something he wants!  any other time he dont want me around!!  i know i know he treats me like shit but i love him so much.  i cant get him off my mind!  i love him to no end and i cant get him to understand that!  i just dont know anymore!!  he will call me tomorrow and want me to come over and i will have to be strong and tell him no i need to stay at home!!

Justin

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Mood: mad
well i statyed the night with justin last night!!  i know i shouldnt because we are not together anymore but i cant help it!!  i need him!!  i love him!  I dont know why i love him so much!  i just like the way he holds me and touches me and talks to me and kisses me and now i miss him so much and i wish i could spend everyday with him but he doesnt want that!!!  When we are together we are together and when we are not together we are not together which isnt to bad cuz i see him almost everyday!  But on days i dont get to see him it kills me!  i cry and cry and cry and feel like shit and i dont get anything done cuz im looking out the windows to see if he is comeing to see him and im sitting by the phone waiting for him to call!!  like im fucking 16 yrs old or something! He kills me!!  He has my heart and he knows it and he uses it to his advantage!!  and he knows i cant say no to him!  uhhh guys suck ass

whatever

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well just so everyone knows!!  i just got out of a relationship and i am not looking for another!!  i love justin to no end!  i wish i could tell him that but i cant cuz im scared he will look at me and laugh and tell me i am stupid!!  He doesnt know how i feel about him!  well he knows i love him even though i have only told him like maybe twice the whole year we were together!!  Because he told me he didnt love me he cares for me!  But anyways when i hear his name i get chills i smile i start to giggle i feel all warm inside!  When i see him my heart hurts cuz all i want is to be with him and take care of him and do everything for him cuz i love him to no end!!  i miss him so much i want to call him all the time just to hear his voice!  that's all i want is to just hear him! 

NEW NEWS

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Well lets start out with Hey WHAT IT DO BABY!!!! Its been a long time but im back!  Ok lets see i lost weight i let my hair grow out and most of all i got single again!  Yes my Love of my life Justin left me  you may ask why?  Well he said he wants to be single! But the real truth is he just dont want to spend his money on me cuz he is a tight ass and a loser!!  Fuck him i dont need his ass i can find someone that will love me for me not because of what i look like or what i have or whatever but love me for who i am!!  He will show up someday!!  till then im going to be single and love it!!!!

fuck 2006

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well 2006 started out fucked up so the now i bet the rest of the will be fucked too!!  New years eve i started drinking at like noon lol! but by the time midnight came around i was sober again cuz i was mad!  justin left to go into town for who knows what and got a PI right after midnight like at 12:08am cuz he was fucked up!  i was so fucking pissed off at him! 

whatever

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same shit as always just a different damn day

i justin

im happy again heheheheh

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ok ok i know i havent wrote in here in like forever but here goes lol. well me and justin are back together and are very happy for the time being lol. He took me out to where he works on the rig and it was really cool! i liked it i thought it was cool. it was big and loud but it was neat to see it! and that is all that has been going on around here!

whatever

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well i have had a shitty night and its going to be a shitty day too!! i swear to god i hate men! why cant i find one that will love me for me!! why? cuz all i get is fucking losers that`s why!!! i feel so alone right now! no one gives a fuck about me! And i care to much about other people! i swear the next guy im with im going to be a fucking bitch and not do anything for him at all! maybe i will get treated better! im so good to my man would do anything he ask of me any time it doesnt matter and what do i get? i get treated like shit like always!

i dont know

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well i havent updated this in a while so its about time i did!! Anyways not much going on here same shit different day!! im still homeless and im still half way single cuz i will never give up on Justin!! NEVER!! i just cant even thought he has cheated on me and hurt me i still cant give up on him! and i know i am a better person then that but i do care for him and shit and i know he cares for me! i just dont know anymore! i just want to be with him! ok enough about Justin cuz i will cry lol!! i feel like shit today!! my head hurts and i just dont feel good! my mom pissed me off yesterday cuz she thinks im on dope! she is such a crack whore! i dont do dope, i dont do anything! i might drink every once in a while but i dont do dope! she is so stupid! she thinks this cuz i lost weight! um that is what some depression will do to you