Why do I drink?

Work was utterly horrific this morning. I have no floor staff to delegate and two shipper recievers that are new so they need to be taken by the hand at every given task. I worked an 11 hour day (which wouldn't be so bad if I weren't salary) and I'm not even tired, just angry.
Shit seems to flow downhill working in retail. Well, I'm at the bottom of the hill I guess since my pion staff is minimal. I think I'll just do everything myself from now on. Or perhaps HR should consider not using the "fog on the mirror" test to hire people. I mean, seriously. Why don't we just hire monkey's? Why pay people to waste space? I'd rather bank our salary dollars than waste them on these useless, incompetent people.
Yes, "ideally' this and that should get done. Thank you for the input. Give me the staff to do it. Or the space for that matter. I'm referring to my plugged stock room. I'm sure there's more merchandise in there than on the sales floor. Actually, I'm positive. Sad reality.
I wrote a previous entry about the hassles and redundancy of retail. I don't feel like babbling on about that again. Just a waste of time, really. Same with these "one on one's" with my manager. I bitch at him everyday about my concerns so why take an hour out of company time to do that? He knows just as well as I do what needs to be done and how it could be improved. It's a matter of initiating and enforcing it.
In case any of you are wondering, I work at Zellers. Warehouse supervisor/slave. My so-called jurisdiction means virtually nothing anyway. Mind you, so does my manager's. I rarely take orders from him. "Orders" that is. He'll come around and state the obvious to me as if I am completely clueless just to give his ego a little boost. I've learned to do the same back and I think he's catching on. I've been doing this for 4 years, I don't really need your input, but thanks.
Anyways, that's my rant for the day. Reply and tell me there is no future in retail so I can quit.

I’m really scratching my head about the latest hoopla about Obama saying that people are bitter. Um, yep, I’m bitter. He nailed that one on the head. Not only am I bitter, but I’m angry, frustrated, pissed off, and generally cranky about our government, the stupid restrictive laws they pass, the fact that most of my paycheck is eaten away by taxes and a social security program that won’t be available when I need it, their spending money left and right on things I don’t believe in nor do I want to pay for with the taxes they drain from my paycheck, the fact that reports come out every day about the frivolous spending, waste, and abuse of my tax money, and their trying to take my guns away from me, give my tax money to ILLEGAL immigrants by giving them the same benefits (HA, what would those be) that I pay into the tax system for, and you bet your ass I'm bitter.

So, Mr. Obama doesn’t have to apologize for saying that I’m bitter, because I am, and if you go around telling people that I should be offended, then frankly you are so delusional and too rich to freakin realize that people are bitter, fed up, tired of jobs going overseas, tired of China sending us poison in our foods and in our pet foods, tired of spinning in my gerbil wheel day in and day out and not being able to get ahead because I work twice as hard to bring in a decent wage only to see it go toward more taxes, gas, higher prices on food and everything else, and being told where I can and can’t do things.

Politicians are suppose to be PUBLIC SERVANTS and yet they get cheap medical benefits, bloated retirement plans, ludicrous salaries, perks like jets when they want to fly around, pretty much everything that I don’t get. You sit on your thrones and tell us to eat cake and how wonderful you are and how great america is and yet thousands are losing homes because of mismanagement and corrupt businesses, thousands are losing their retirements because we’re forced to put into 401Ks that are based on these corrupt businesses that pay their CEOs bloated salaries and money for leaving once they’ve drained the company and the 401k funds dry.

You and the MEDIA are the ones running what the issues are, not the people. Nobody speaks to the people, the media hires high priced “experts” to give them their opinion of what WE THE PEOPLE care about, but nobody has called me up and said “hey, what do you care about?” Nope, not ever.

Bitter... that barely scratches the surface of how I feel about how “MY” government is run and about this high school-like campaign. Good lord, is this a federal election or a spat on Myspace?

Stop pointing fingers, nit picking words and start telling me how you’re going to fix this crappy mess we call a government without spending the rest of my paycheck.

I'm having another one of those "what am I doing with my life?" moments. It's funny the way my thoughts fluctuate so drastically around this subject. I mean one day I'll be completely content with everything and then the next I feel completely useless.

I look at it from one angle and think to myself that I've done quite a lot in my 18 years of living. I've been fortunate enough to travel quite extensively throughout North America as well as accross seas. From the far east to the far west. Completed high school, done some university courses, worked at the same place for 3 years, furthered myself etc. Don't get me wrong I appreciate everything I've been able to do but I just don't feel like I've done enough? Or maybe that's not even it. I think it's because I don't know what I want to do. I keep switching my major in school and wasting all this time doing courses that didn't even matter. I think that's what's really bugging me. Especially since I have no motivation to even go this year.

Maybe I'm just too self-assured? Who knows. I'm probably over-analyzing this to the point of where it barely exists. If that makes any sense... But in any case, maybe I just need to be completely selfless and stop looking at things from such a superficial point of view. The fact that I can't even walk out of the house without make up on is just so pretentious. It's not even to say that I look bad without it, but it's like everyone's eyes are movie camera's - capturing every fault and flaw you have. Their opinion is probably worthless but we care enough to avoid it. I do, anyway. It's quite unfortunate how the negative comments seem to stick in the back of our heads while the positive ones seem to not matter. It's almost like we believe the negative more than the positive. Why? I'm going to go out on a lim here and say it's directly related to how secure we are with ourselves. I used to think I was pretty content with myself until I started to really think and realize all the things I do just to avoid any bad interpretation. Stupid, but true.

It's not just about the way you look, but the way you speak. I'm constantly juggling words in my head deciding what's more appropriate to say and how should I say it. Even though there's an easier alternative that is short and to the point. I feel like I'm obligated to elaborate and use 'big' words just to sound more intelligent. And the dreaded "how are you?" question... For everyone there's at least a novel's worth of words that can come out to answer that but we usually reply with the usual "Fine, thanks". Such a personal question usually follwed with an intangible answer. We all do it for the purpose of being polite. Society to seems to have a lot of these acceptance falsehoods that we naively fall under. We're all aware yet we continue to pursue our everyday lives just as if it was written down.

I'm not really sure what the point of this blurb was. I just thought I'd let it out there. Reply and share you thoughts. I'll read them.

Before you even begin to read this large rant I'm about to post - it's best you have some understanding of retail otherwise this will sound like a different language entirely.

So whenever our DM (District Manager) comes into our store we act like God is visiting. And I don't mean that in a good way. I mean we literally have to clear the floor of skids and "clearance tables" that we're not really allowed to display but hey - whatever will blow it out of the store, right? So for an hour visit from our DM we have spent the entire week cleaning, restocking empty spaces with merchandise that does not belong there to 'make it look full'. Bastardaizing the planograms completely. Tell me now, do you really think these people are that naive? Obviously they didn't get their positions by being morons and having a lack of experience. So why go to these great extents MAKING MORE OF A MESS - when you think about it really.

That was just the beginning of it there, that doesn't even begin to describe our everyday bull shit we do to keep our store's so-called compliance 100%. We have a system called "picking and slotting" which is basically allt he "overstock" you have get's slotted into a shelf with a number and then comes up on the "pick list" (to be put out since the shelf can now hold another item due to it being sold) and we "pick" it out of the system but don't essentially go and physically put it out because the shelves and fixtures are not accessable due to a plugged stock room overflowing with stock. How accurate is that? It's good in theory but in the long run if you don't have the staff or accessability to keep up with it, that's how you lose track of merchandise. All in all the system in a joke because no one keeps up with it, therefore retarded. Nevermind how people just stick shit on the shelves without slotting it.

Secondly, the carelessness in putting out stock. Don't bother to check to see if the item is AR (automatic replenishment) to know that it actually goes in a planogram and not in a flex or promo area. In which case it would show up as BM (buyer managed). And the lack of care that comes from the cashiers to pull any sku up when some UPC doesn't work and then we wonder why we have negative onhands.

I could go on, but I won't. I've had enough. Hope you enjoyed.

I really wish I could tell you why I'm still awake at this time of the moring. Hell, I'm curious to know how I'm surviving on the few hours of sleep I scarcely enjoyed last night. 5 AM migrane! BAM! Sleep for two hours just to go through the day with a dull head ache. Unimpressed; But I did manage to get a lot done at work today. And home for that matter.

I have work in less than 7 hours and I'm still up. I'm not even remotely tired - Mind you I did just come from an intense poker game that lasted about 6 hours. I ended up splitting the pot. Not too bad, I suppose. I didn't drink or anything which is unusual. It's almost ritual that I do every game but I thought I'd lay off the beer. I can't really just enjoy a few... I've got get the whole case down if I'm going to start. Dirty way of thinking, but it's true. I mean, I know my limit but I can never settle for just tipsy. Anyone else know what I mean? I'm not a huge drinker to begin with, I think anyway. Obviously some may differ. Those who drink only on special occasions will think my drinking every weekend/second weekend is a little over the top. Then you have the regular alcky's that have to have their daily dosage.

I seem to veering off topic the more and more I babble. I don't really have topic actually. I was just bored and happen to noticed it's been about a month since my last blog so, figured I'd entertain you all with this useless spew on my random event. All in all, not a bad week. Could have been better. Working 9 days in a row takes a lot of out of. Tomorrow will be day 10. Woo hoo.

I'm not one of those assholes to indulge in the plot and spoil the entire movie and/or ending. I'm not even going to say not to go see it if you really want to, but I was really unimpressed.
Although M. Night Shyamalan set a high bar for himself with his previous movies because of his ways to twist plots at the very end, the majority of his movies have been pretty good. Hell, I didn't necessarily favor Lady in the Water, but it also wasn't the worst movie I had ever seen. This just wasn't nearly up to par with his previous work. Plus Mark Whalberg is tolerable in plenty of roles, but I really thought it was a joke for the majority of the movie. Even up until the end and then got bitch slapped into realization with, "That's it?!"
Then again, I've had people tell me a movie was bad and then ultimiately ended up ejoying it, so don't let this change your mind if you were set on seeing it - not that I imagine it would have anyway.

Sometimes I look around at society and what today’s culture has created and remember why I believe in abortion.

I was a little ticked off today when a good friend of mine said I was closed minded for not having a strong stand point on my Religious views. I'm not going to lie, I really don't. But I think by doing so, I'm doing just opposite of what he said. I would rather have a mind open to wonder, than closed by Religion.